Sorry you're struggling so much, Screamout. I know it's hard when you have a physical condition that limits your ability to get out and be in the world, and chronic pain has a way of really wearing a person down emotionally. At the end of your post you commented that you've thought about going to a therapist to deal with your fears and anxieties around the issue of separation from loved ones but you couldn't because of your physical condition. Are you unable to leave your house for medical appointments? I think working with a therapist is an excellent plan and there are therapists who work with individuals who are unable to leave their bed. The place to check is with your local church or religious organization. Or call the local mental health clinic and check with them. I wish you good luck in getting the help you need!