THIS MAY BE TRIGGERING!





So I finally decided to meet him. We had a lot of e-mail correspondance and it felt ok even good - a connection. I met him yesterday and although there was no sexual touching, he made me feel violated. He looked at me up and down, he walked behind me and I know he was still doing the looking thing. I tried to calm myself and told myself he was just checking me out physically and that was OK, I was just over-reacting. He gave me a bracelet - I kissed him on the cheek to say thank-you - he said Oh no, one on the lips please - I did - why did I, I didn't want to? He asked to hold my hand - I did yet felt uncomfortable. He then asked me if I wanted to have a baby - I said of course not I am nearly 46! We went for a walk and it was quite secluded, he said he had taken me there to have his wicked way with me, but smiled while he was saying it as if it was a joke. I told him it was a good job I had my steel toe cap boots on them. We then sat on some rocks there were other people around. Again I kept thinking I was just over-reacting. He held my hand and then let go to point at something. He then didn't rehold my hand but put his hand on my knee - he took it off again and said "whoops sorry". He then wanted to take my photograph, I at last found my voice to say no. We parted to go home and today I e-mailed him to say I didn't want to meet him again - he said it was a shame as he'd felt turned on after meeting me. I feel revolting, repulsed. I went to the supermarket this morning and felt that everyone was looking at me up and down like he did. I don't know if I am just over-reacting - when I think of him I can still smell his aftershave, I don't want to have that smell in my head.