does anyone know what im talking about? theres this feeling you get, inbetween deciding you are going to SI, and actually doing it. you feel a little nervous, some anxiety, a lump in the throat, heart racing,... well i feel that way right now, but i have not decided to SI nor have I SI'ed recently (been about 7 months), but i have that feeling.... its scary cause i dont want to SI... dunno why i have this feeling...