Last time I saw Pdoc was kinda a disaster. She asked what I was feeling and thinking about my meds and I said I didn't know. I barley spoke with her. To be honest I didn't really know what I was thinking or feeling. By the end of the appt we had increased one of my meds and it was left up to me to increase my other med or ditch it all together. At my next T appt my T asked me about my Pdoc appt and what I had decided. I told her I had decided to increase both. She wrote it down and said she would talk to Pdoc. The are in the same clinic. I went to fill my one med and it hadn't been increased I thought no big deal I will just take 2. On Fri. I realized I would be out of my other med by the end of the weekend, but when I went to fill it, my insurance wouldn't pay because it was too soon and it also hadn't been increased. I called the clinic and left a message with the receptionist and got a call back saying it was all taken care of. So today I go to pick up my meds and not only had it not been increased but my insurance still says it is too soon to fill. So as of tonight I am out of one of my meds. I called the clinic and tried to leave a message with Pdoc, but she doesn't seem to have a voicemail box. So I left a message with my T.

I am mad and my first response it to say *&^% you, and quit the meds and the T! I hate that I can't leave a voice message with Pdoc! I hate that I have to leave a message with a receptionist and that it didn't seem to get relayed correctly. I hate that I leaft a mesage with my T after hours, which is something I never do. Pdoc told me that if I stopped this med I should taper because I would feel ill if I didn't.

Help me put some thoughts together other than, just the *&^% you! I want to deal with this reasonably and behave myself, but I have no idea how.

Maggy Jo