I'm glad you were able to dip your toe in!
ANd like tree, I view the telling T 'I want to leave' in a positive way too.....being able to be honest with T about your feelings and your needs. Also, for myself, I think it's better when I want to leave rather than I want to stay......wanting to leave is a sign we uncovered some things that needed uncovered, yet is also a sign it's time to stop for now, and wait and rest and come back to it later......