i am doing this with people i know in real life, not online friends. I must stress it's not all the time. Also in real life, if i express an opinion, if it's disagreed with i feel stupid, rejected, and exposed. I don't argue with people as such, everyone is entitled to their opinion of course!

Self-sabotage and rejection are things that strike a cord with me. I am very aware i'm not painting myself in a good light here and it's horrible. I'm finding it hard to explain myself.

I have emailed a therapist to get treatment, because there is alot bubbling under the surface that i just can't heal from.

I want to thank you all for taking the time with me over this subject