Thanks.. I think maybe this is some defense mechanism kicking in.. I mean, I've been told a lot that everyone is different and therefore the same outcome won't even happen.. But for every person that said they were different the same thing has happened. This "curse" is really just my personality.. I can be very.. selfish when it comes to my feelings my problems. A lot of the time I need someone to lean on but cannot be relied on to support someone else. This leads to a lopsided friendship where the other person feels neglected..

I try my best when I can to support my friends but a lot of the time I just can't. In the end, they all just start hating me. This hatred has lead to intense bullying and emotional abuse.. and it wasn't just once or twice, it's been from every friend I have EVER had.