Jexa and Fool Zero, your comments are extremely helpful to me. Jexa, everything you wrote rings true for me! I get stuck again and again, and in the past it was with "real" people, until I began therapy and then I substituted my Ts and have ever since.

You said the only way out is not to feed the monster, that doing so is counterproductive. Fool Zero, what you described about misdirection is exactly what I have done all of my life! You say to let the feelings in instead. It's true, about wanting to be close to a person but finding all the information is not achieving that. I don't want to hijack your thread, Jexa. This is related to the thread I started about googling, but I wanted to thank both of you for talking about this subject.

How are you today, Jexa?