No, please don't go away. I think many of us can relate to how you feel right now, remember, the "present" becomes the "past", so hang in there, be kind to yourself.
About 6-7yrs ago, I just melted down,having so many feelings you have stated, pdoc.,meds., and therapy pulled me through, but the biggest thing was time, time can be our friend, besides foe, today, I am happy I chose time.
It is good if you post when you feel down, one doesn't have to only post when things are great. Talking things out, can help sometimes instead of bottling things up.
ALWAYS feel free to hang out here or PM me if you wish.
Take care dear lady,
Roe

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