I don't know if this will make you feel better or worse, but I have had more than 350 sessions and I STILL get anxious before I go. Every single week, I walk in, T asks how I feel,and I say "anxious". Last week when I asked, I said "guess" and he said "anxious!"

T and I talked about this a long time ago, and I realized that the anxiety isn't about seeing T, but about "meeting myself" in his office. The longer I go, the more quickly and easily I let down my defenses when I am with him...and when I let down my defenses, there I am with my feelings, my history, and my Self. I've spent my entire life trying to numb out and get far, far away from that stuff and now here I am, choosing to walk in and face it. If you think about it like that, it makes so much sense that we would feel anxious!

I bet your T is completely accepting of HOWEVER you feel when you walk in there. You are not alone, Squiggle