Hello psychcentralies.

I want to explain some of my experiences.

The first is my schizoprenia. It makes me detach myself from my body and feel like i am outside my body looking in at myself. Sometimes i can imagine a particular person is watching and judging everything i do. It is horrible, because i have no mind of my own, i'm constantly self-conscious and insecure. I think about other peoples thoughts. Do they like me, do they dislike me? And the result is i never do things well enough, i am never good enough for others, therefore not good enough for myself.

That's my schizophrenia.

Then there's my telepathy. I feel i am telepathic. I know how someone is feeling, regardless of what they say. It is HOW they say it, their intonation and pronounciation. Even when it is written i can see a lot of depth into it, and read the truth in everything. I feel like i am going crazy, because this ability, this form of communication, has not always been present. I have always been sensitive, but i have not felt telepathic. The problem is, i know i am schizophrenic, and i want to be sure this is not a delusion. The reassuring thing is, i am almost always right. Not meaning to sound arrogant, but my telepathy works for me. I can relate well to people using it. People tell me all the time what a friendly, nice person i am. Conversely, my parents tell me i am sick, ugly, fat, stupid, and worthless. They tell me they hate me and i should kill myself, they wish i had never been born. How horrible is that? Anyway, what are people's thoughts on telepathy and ways of communicating? I spoke to a counsellor and she just thought i was very sensitive to the many cues in a person's voice and language. I hope so. I hope i am simply going sane!