I had an appt to see my T on Wednesday and her secretary called me this morning and said that she would have to cancel my appt for Wednesday but they had an opening this afternoon, and of course I took it. During the call the secretary mentioned that she had hoped I could re-schedule for today since my T will be gone pretty much the rest of the MONTH. After I hung up the phone my heart completely sank. It's only the beginning of June and the thought of having to go the rest of the month without seeing my T is devastating to me. I'm the kind of person that needs consistency and when something changes I have panic attacks. I honestly hope she made a mistake and meant the rest of the week, not the rest of the month. I'm really scared right now because for the past 3 years I've been seeing my T every week, except a week here and there when she was gone. But I'm really worried that I won't be able to see her for the rest of the month, and am also concerned about what is going with her that would make her take off so much time. Part of me feels like she won't come back and that scares me so much. I just don't know how I'm going to get through this. I took a xanax to help calm me down right now, but I can't help but worry about what my T is going to tell me today.