Thank you KD & Place,

It is almost like I am replying a scenario of some type. I am working on it in Therapy, but is sooo hard..I run away from the bad emotions, I like smiles and hugs, never got those growing up, but its the bad things which hurt so much, and is hard to go thru, I am trying to be gentle, but its like pulling teeth from somewhere inside, and they hide so well until we are alone.