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Originally Posted by Jenn1fer82
I am an angry monster. It scares me how angry I can get. I can't control myself and all I do is yell at my bf. I don't excuse him for his faults but the longer I talk to him about the issue the crazier I get. When I don't talk about the issues it get bottled up in me. I don't know how to talk to him. I don't know how to improve my communication skills. We just started couples therapy and communication skills is one of the issues we are addressing.
We got into a fight today and even though he said he was truly sorry I was still angry. This anger that I live with is a deadly curse that eats me up inside. I hate being angry, It reminds me of how ugly I am.
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Wow. This is exactly me. After all the yelling and angerment is done, I become so scared and disgusted with myself for lashing out at the one I treasure the most. I too have had enough and my darling has been upset and scared of me for being that monster. He knows its not me and anytime I am, tries to help me so that we can identify why I'm upset.
There are some great suggestions on this thread that I hope you try and that I'll try myself.
Much luck