It's really hard to fight this one.

People with APD usually were rejected as a child leaving them with a feeling of not being good enough, not lovable and to hide their feelings.

By trying to see your qualities and your self worth, it can help you regain self insurance and self esteem.

For me, isolating myself only reinforce my low self esteem and my low self worth. This site has help me to not isolate too much because I can communicate without putting myself right in the middle of it. I also have the choice to back off when ever I feel I have too.

People who suffer from APD has a real hard time with rejection. Not only becuase of the person who has rejected us but also because we give power to the rejection without even knowing it. When this happens we really have to take a step back and anylise the situation because sometime it is not as bad as we feel it is.

We always have to work on ourself and push ourself to communicate and not put ourself down which is a real struggle with us. We have a tedency to give ourself s**t because we feel we are not worth nothing and surely not lovable.

In real life, face to face with people I wear a mask all the time. I would be dying on a street and people would ask me how I am and would answer " I am fine thank you. Do you need help?". It is a struggle to ask for help because I don't feel I are worth helping.

But there is a lot of people out there who can help us out. It is for us to ask.

I think to keep our communication open is our first step in the right direction.

Take good care!