everybody has to start somewhere. this will take time. use the help of your therapist and any books they might suggest to further communication and continue building awareness.

we're fortunate to have posted online in a couple places over the years that have helped us keep track of awareness of the extent of dissociation and what that has created in our lives.

your post reminded us of when we first started on our journey to awareness and how scary this all seemed. educate yourselves and be kind to all that reveal themselves to you.

do the work and you'll get there. nothing replaces the work but work. iow no way through but through.....after spendnig life looking for a way around or over or anything but the reality of dealing with "the stuff" and going through the hard stuff in order to heal we've learned that the longer we avoid the path that presents itself to us the more arduous our journey becomes.

often the work isn't easy or attractive but the alternatives of remaining confused and stagnant aren't options we're willing to consider any longer.

gl.