Oh MUE, I am so sorry this happened to you. Like all the others say, it is NOT your fault. Would you force yourself on someone just because you could? Because they were weaker than you? Because they didn't say no loud enough? Because they didn't fight back good enough? I think the answer to those questions are all no. So why do you think it is ok for those guys to do what they did for all the reasons above? Please be gentle with you. You have been a victim again, but you can become a survivor. I promise. I really do.