Tree: I can hear your pain and wish I could reach out and give you the biggest hugs(((()))). Sometimes I think the word 'secret' implys something sneaky or wrong, so I use the word private instead and maybe that would help you too? To say ' I have some things that are private to me, that are very hard to share and I can only share them in the secure environment of therapy.

I think it's healthy to have things that you keep private and if the past result was negative of sharing with your husband I can understand that you are hesitant to share with him again. This doesn't mean you will never be able to share these things with him but that you will only do it when you feel safe.

When you feel this low is it possible to move your session with your T forward? Or get an extra session?

It sounds like you have been working hard to just keep going by using so many positive distractions and coping skills, you have done so great.

we are here for you hun