i mailed her a letter this morning.i know i am going to be introuble for it but whatever.so she stops seeing me because i cant adhear to boundries or whatever. this is what i wrote to her.

dear T

i was going to send you out this long temper tantrumming letter filled with all kinds of crap running around in my head,but i just dont have the energy.this is all i have,my life just seems to be falling apart,and i just wish i wasnt here.i cant even come up with words to speak about what it has been like.i guess it doesnt matter you arn't here ,nobody is and it sucks. i mean it is what is is and it sucks

if you are reading this you have obviously read the letter and i want to say thanks.i know i'm not supose to send e-mail or letters and whatever else may come as a consequence of my sending you this.i don't see how things could be worse.i just don't have the energy to make myself care.it's whatever.i tried to make it short

thank you
granite