I am having a difficult time with men who are ill and have no sense of reason and threatened violence. Big old reaction from the past. I keep wanting to be "good enough" so that I won't be at risk. All a mental state but I am truly having trouble with this and need some support. I am looking over my shoulder and have a powerless feeling and I know it is flashbacks mixed with the present and an old response. Please any practical advice I will gladly take. Well wishes and you all sorrounding me with love and protection will also help. Thanks.