dear granite, I don't see how she could be mad about a cry for help like you sent to her......you told her how you feel and what your pain is, and that is important stuff you shared! very brave of you to share it.
I am so sorry it's so hard right now.....for what it's worth, I can relate to the not having energy to keep on part. But somehow, you need to keep trying, whatever it takes, you need to keep trying and believe that you are worth rescuing and be willing to rescue yourself! gosh, I KNOW how hard it is, but I also believe you have the strength and will to do it.....you have made it this far, you can keep trying!