Thread: its not enough
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Old Jun 07, 2011, 01:40 PM
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Originally Posted by poetgirl76 View Post
dear granite, I don't see how she could be mad about a cry for help like you sent to her......you told her how you feel and what your pain is, and that is important stuff you shared! very brave of you to share it.
I am so sorry it's so hard right now.....for what it's worth, I can relate to the not having energy to keep on part. But somehow, you need to keep trying, whatever it takes, you need to keep trying and believe that you are worth rescuing and be willing to rescue yourself! gosh, I KNOW how hard it is, but I also believe you have the strength and will to do it.....you have made it this far, you can keep trying!
it is so hard every day i feel like is this the day that things are going to go to far .when SI isnt going to be enough when nothing will keep me from completely loosing it.i cant believe she is gone for another two weeks she just got back from me not seeing her for two weeks.i saw her once.it so feels like she just doesnt want to see me.i dont know why i dont abuse her say bad things to her get angry or anything.the worst i ever get is what i wrote in the letter.Thats it.and i know now thare will be even stricter boundries because i sent her that stupid letter.but i cant talk i really did try but i was so angry and hurt i just couldnt.i think she knows this also because she said at one point.i guess today isnt a day you are able to share anything and thats ok..i dont think she would have wanted to hear what i was feeling at the time.it wouldnt have been good
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