I can relate to this - yesterday my T told me that she likes ME, truly does, and that she enjoys talking to me. If we weren't client and therapist we'd make great friends, and I know I'd admire her and doing so wouldn't cause an issue in the long run. But that's not reality, so it is an issue when it causes me to resist treatment for fear of losing her. Does this sound familiar?

I too hope that these feelings diminish once I'm healed..."healed" sounds like a new personality, brimming with logic and self-confidence. The logic will tell me that T is not my friend and that we no longer need to see each other. This is what I imagine "healed" feeling like, but I doubt that is how it will really turn out. I'll probably go on wanting to be her friend and needing that support from HER alone, no matter how much logic tells me not to.

I hope this helps some, though I imagine it comes across as awfully bleak. Hopefully it makes sense, too