Ok, it sounds like you were doing ok for 20 years and something has triggered you.
And it takes time for any antidepressant to work. Is citaopram a relaxer like zanex or clonazapam?

Check your coffee intake too. Sometimes as you get older you can't handle it as well, if you drink a lot of it back off slowly. Try to get out and take some walks and take in the air and sun.

But definitely try to get more counceling as angel suggests. Come to PC if you get wound up and we will try to help you relax.

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