Hi, i'm fairly new here and haven't ever replied to anyone before but your posts really touched me. I think you're amazing, you have so many pressures to deal with on top of your depression but you always fight through each day to give as much as you can. I wish everyone was more like you and the others on this board!
When reading your posts, something jumps out at me. I always find it hard to describe this quality when I see it in people but it is like a innocent kindness. Most people learn kindness, what is right and wrong but for you (and the one other person who i see this quality in, my sister) it seems to be an innate emotion. Unfortunetly, i think this quality means you hurt more deeply than most but it also means you have a deeper empathy and understanding than most too - a deeper kindness.
When i read your posts i see all this love inside you spilling out onto the pages, as you help others even though you are in the depths of dispair. And that inspires me.
So please know that even though the dark cloak of depression is surronding, and seems to be consuming you, your inner child, your inner light is shining just as bright. It is shining through all that darkness, showing everyone the real you - a caring, loving person.
I know everyone here will agree with this, and i hope that in time you will finally allow yourself to see it too.
Your inner child is strong - it is surviving despite the depressions best attempts to defeat it.
And i know that one day, it will defeat the depression!
Until then, keep believing in yourself.
Love Abby