Kebs ... Keep in mind that there are some that can give you just enough encouragement to help you through the next day or week or month. You offered me that encouragement in the past. It does not mean the I do not feel exactly like what you are describing most days ... It only means that there are others out there that know enough about what you are feeling deeper inside than most can understand. And because they hold on for that next day or week or month you realize that you can too. I hope you will always find that encouragement from someone here on this site. You deserve it.