Dear Caroline,
We heal at our own pace. Nobody can't tell how much you are putting in getting better. Nobody has live your life but you.
I have read your post lately and I think you are trying very hard. Of course sometime you will get down or triggered. We all do that even people without a mental illness will sometime get discourage and hopeless. Life is tough. The main thing is to get back on our feet and keep going.
(((((((((((((((((Caroline))))))))))))))