Hi Jexa.
I'm sorry about your work environment. I wish it was less stressful.

You stated that your younger you needs to be loved all the time. Needs to feel loved by everyone. Can you tell her that you will love her. That you accept her, and you wont ever leave her? Can you be the source of love that she needs? I know this is a tall order. My T said something once about taking care of the inner me that was hurting, and I responded with that I didn't want to and still have trouble with it. But you are the only one who is always going to be around. You are the one who can provide the love to yourself in a way that no one else can. While I hate the phrase that you have to love yourself before you can love others, in this situation it seems to fit.