it is easy to understand how one could feel bummed if one lived by the equation you have in the subject line. we can see how you believe that to be true based on what you've shared on board over time. however we do not find that equation to be true for us or for our lives.

we hope that you'll continue challenging your thoughts as your awareness of when APD is distorting things grows.

we had to learn with major depression that more often than not our thoughts about ourselves weren't valid or based in any reality that mattered. the disease would have us believing we're worthless and useless. we know both of those things are false.........now. it took many years of therapy, meds and lots of self work to get to the point where we do not automatically believe what thoughts are in our head.

we hope you'll get to that point too eventually. slowly you've grown and changed and done things to better your life. keep on keepin' on sweetie.