wow thank you guys for replying, didn't think people would b.c it's so long !

@missmisty: i want to get a therapist or something b.c i feel like i always go to my friends and they have problems of their own, and i don't like talking to my bf as much about it b.c i know he feels like it's all his fault.

@direction: i have family but they live some what far. & i have my mom & my sister twisting things around so i look like the jerk in the whole situation. i have a friend who's mom offered me a place to stay. i just want to get a job 1st so i won't feel so bad you know ? it really hurt me especially that now my brothers against me too b.c he was the only one on my side now he's telling me to get out now too & won't even speak to me:/

@IceCreamKid she knows my situation she was 'trying' to help at first she just is making things harder though since i have to do all my home schooling finals &sign up for more classes through her. i've sent her emails with my cell number she's just always too busy to call. i have my whole school thing figured out. like all that is planned out. i just need a job 1st right now to save up some money