Sorry guys.. This thread is starting to affect me.. emotionally. I'm starting to regret putting this up as, thanks to my own esteem issues, I'm feeling a little bit.. judged/misunderstood? I know it's all in my head but as the topic has changed into something other than what I had intended to be (on my end it's one of those "it sounds bad but you don't know him, and it's not as bad as it really is" things now) I would rather this just be buried and forgotten..