Crazy @ work at the moment, but pushing back what I can. Think I'm in a mixed episode, so I naturally feel I can tell everyone where to get off.
Haven't really been in the mood to drink, max 2 beers, so that's a good thing. And off to bed as early as possible.
Jumped on my horse last night, bareback, and all he had was his bridle and blanket. I know we just walked, but I needed those 15minutes to lose myself.
A bit peeved off with the HR lady who I'd started to trust - not yet to a stage where I could talk face to face, but getting there - and now the last while she hasn't had time/concern to mail me back. Oh well; will teach me to stop trusting people so quickly.
I think the PTSD issue is behind me; it never really hit me. While I'm surprised how I recated, and didnt try defend myself, I can't beat myself up about it and can just be glad things worked out ok.
I'm mostly stable, but the last 2 weeks have really been kind of mixed episodes, and I know I need to find the positives and stay away from depression.

Have an interview on Tuesday for an internal move as a Business Analyst. Now that Walmart has taken over, and it would be more of an IT department role, I really hope I can move. My managers have been a-holes and never made it as clear as the last 2 weeks that they want me out of their deparment. Hasn't done the self-esteem any good, and I do begin to question myself.