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Fuzzybear said:
For me, I feel that judging is very similar to disrespect. Do we really have the right to judge others? Especially when we surely know that our judgements will hurt? I think not....

I am also learning and growing... and also have moments of irrational thought and anger when triggered!!!!!

Fuzzy

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> the thing that we were expanding on from time0's post was that her awareness of her thought process being distorted was a major step in changing how painful some thoughts can be.

with your post above we'd merely ask how you "know" your judgements will hurt? we're not suggesting that you're not able to accurately gauge a situation but how often are you aware that your APD might, just might, be distorting the things you "know"?

it is never easy to admit we're not able to trust our own minds or thought process but will disease/disorder we often MUST learn different ways or else remain stuck in pain and misery. that's why baby steps of growth add up to leaps and bounds. it may not seem important or large at the time but a year down the road to be able to clearly see how far one has come and what positive growth one has achieved is so valuable.

we hope you continue to work toward returning to professional help eventually as that has been something you go back and forth on in posts. perhaps the experiences of others in the UK that aren't through the NHS will help you continue with your baby steps toward healing.

thanks for offering the opinion of someone with APD....that helps the board at large better understand some of what you experience and why your reactions are as they are.