I am confused about my intense reaction, I am working through things with my T and am only just beginning to accept that maybe I suffered sexual abuse / assault in the past. I was married for 17 years and that relationship felt safe, so I guess it is something that I have not really faced before (used to drink a lot of alocohol before my marriage and also used to have to have a drink or two before having sex with my husband).

I rarely drink now, so maybe that has something to do with the events of Saturday - I felt so uncomfortable from the moment I met up with him and can't understand why I didn't just go home immediately or at least after a quick coffee - I feel I let myself down, let myself stay in a situation that I didn't want to be in. I wrote some stuff down for my T, but couldn't talk about it with him yesterday - my mind just kept going numb and switched off.

I still feel very "alert" today - the smallest thing can startle me - quite difficult to sleep, can't seem to settle to get off to sleep, then waking up early - I keep telling myself to calm down that it is OK and I am completely over-reacting - but something has been triggered in me.

Thanks for your replies. SD