It sounds like a lot has happened...I hope you are getting some help to sort through this...I do want to just mention that all the people you are cutting off contact from may not necessarily be trying to harm you. When things for me get intense my default mode is to just cut them from my life...I get confused...throw all the people in the "bad" category. I think I've cut out some good people in my life that maybe could have been here still. Just something to think about...keep your distance until things calm down...try not to lash out (thinking son's mother-in-law)...