hi all. i am a newly diagnosed schizoaffective. The doctors had told me that i was bipolar for a long time. I didnt believe them. I hardly believe anybody. The schizofrenic in me has affected me for a while. It started when i was 14. I thought i had been traumatized but looking back it was me not being able to cope with what my life was at the time. I remember crying hysterically in 2nd grade and fighting with my mom in 4th. I hear voices and have conversations in my head almost 24/7. i have been on antipsycotics for the last month and think that I need a increase. about 2 weeks ago i tried putting myself in the hospital. Im always on edge and dont wanna run anymore, it seems though i cant even move out of my seat. im glad though there is a place i found with people that think the same way i do. Myfamily has a hard time understanding.