I think I've made the wrong impression, I originally was trying to find the source of everything, which was this 'event' I'd almost completely forgotten about, which got me thinking why & how. While I'm certain that there's some form of PTSD it's not the main priority, that probably goes to my query Autistic/ASP/SP/BDD/dysthymic pentagon of diagnostic confusion. It's a total headache, but at my age I'm so frustrated at missing out on what I want to do, because of one of those five...