Today is a good day. I am still thinking about my session yesterday. Trying to figure out how to keep my winning streak going! I am still in awe that she said we had a great relationship. For some reason, that makes me cry. Why is that?

Because I am scared out of my pants to have that kind of relationship with anyone. I do think we click and work well together, but I cannot bring myself to admit we have a 'relationship'. I know that is strange and many don't understand it. I don't either.

I want to grow up and get past this. I feel like I have some kind of block or something. It's like there is a certain point I will allow my brain to go to. Anything beyond that, I can't do. The gates close, the steel door comes down, and I put out the sign, "No Trespassing!"