((((((((SAWE)))))))))

When I am in that place, I try to trust that when I see T, whatever needs to come up will come up....and it usually does.

Your therapy is not ever a waste of T's time. Even when you are floundering and don't know what to say. Sometimes my T tells me, "you are exactly where you are supposed to be right now".

Be gentle with yourself. Your therapy is for you, to use however you need to, even if it's just to say "I feel like I'm pushing something away" or "I feel anxious about this".
to you!