It more confused me. I was a teen, so used to being treated what i perceived as badly

It was typical phrasing back then for that stuff.

i was more concentrating on how laughing could be a hysterical reaction and how people thought i was such a horrible person. i'd just witness an accident.

it's scary and confusing, yes?

i'm so glad it's passed for you.

p.s. i've never done it again.

kd