I dunno if Im going thru my mania stage right now but Damn! This feeling is thee most good feeling that I've ever felt! I feel that I'm god... I start having such strong cravings of wanting to buy a gun, either 12 gauge shotgun or a AK47... thank god I dont have a FFL and I'm also glad that I would become disqualified as they do criminal and I think health background checks. I don't have a criminal history but a single misdemeador for carrying a deadly weapon. I had a butterfly knife on me at the time of my baker act, which i had confessed of the weapon to the police officer who had me cuffed at the Emergency room.

The scary part is that I really don't want to seek any help during my episode... I mean if you have such high self esteem... and you feel that you're self important... would you want to change that? Probably not. I get tired of feeling like im less important... this is the reason why I dont want to call up my local psychatric hospital about the incident... And having them send over the pig squad to take me back to the funny farm.