((((Kebs)))) it's great to see you too - a familiar face =D

so much of what you're describing sounds all too familiar to me. Right now I'm in an overall upswing. I still have issues but I'm coping and things are much better. Are you really right back where you started? Havent you been places and done things - is the depression just making you forget what you've found? Or did none of the meds work?

Depression is so horrible because it can be chronic, because it can come back after it goes away. I've heard of people who don't have a relapse for even 10 years (or never?) ... its SCARY. To me at least. But I think we have to try hard to keep faith in the good times inbetween relapses and the possibility that it can get so much better or even go mostly away.

I'm enjoying big parts of my life right now. I am stressed right this moment so granted I'm a little worse than amonth ago but I went and played some sports last monday and had a BLAST, I went and DID things that I never could have done 1.5-2 years ago!!! Have faith that things can get better (((((Kebs)))))