I am not yelling at you
and I don't hate you, not in the least.

and neither does he. wow what a rotten experience. the good thing is that next Wed is a while off; there may be enough time for this to recede a little into the background, for your raw wound to calm down some.

you haven't done anything wrong, you are not giving off vibes, you are doing your best all the time. The fact is that therapists, in this weird weird weird relationship, look at us and see us at all our stages at once, not just the one that is in the office, and because our past affects our present in many and convoluted ways, they have all stages in mind all the time (although not the way that we do when we have something "in mind". I may not be very clear on this. For them, it's always somewhere tied to their work, whereas we just ARE, so to speak... does that make sense at all?). I know it's very disconcerting, been there.

But you are not at fault. Period. I am wishing you peace