...my T has told me that she notices that I do this to cope with deep hurt.
See I am going to be 40 in a couple of years and I have never been in love or married. And when I get "triggers" like seeing younger couples in love holding hands and glowing, I make up in my mind that I am dating this guy who does not exsist to cope with the hurt. My T said that she notices it is cause I am so lonely. See getting out is very hard for me seeing how I don't drive (phobia of that), I have bad social phobia and I live in an unsafe area, so I can't walk around. I am trying to push myself to find a job.
My father lives in a dream world and now he has completely lost his mind.
Fact: I hate my life and I am trying really hard to change it (by trying to find a job). But right now I try to deal with it by living in a dream world with a wonderful boyfriend.
Reality: I have nothing
My T wants me to break away from this dream world I live in, but it is so hard, a lot harder than I thought.
Thanks for reading this.