Pippa texted me again today I don't know why I don't reply :/ things have been slightly better with family today which is a relief one less thing to worry about. My exams... I keep failing I can't concentrate, there's so much pressure because I'm predicted high grades and I just sit there and cant think. My psychiatrit is writing a letter to the exam board so idk. I'm not looking foward to summer that much really. Not having to go to school gives me less distractions. I never intended to live this long initially, so when I carry on it feels weird... Almost like I shouldn't be here. I don't know really I'm just confused about everything I feel like banging my head against the wall; but that just makes my head hurt.