Hey Jess,

I am unsure what the letter will do either sorry.... maybe they will make allowances I have no idea

I know the "I don't want to disappoint" attitude. I am the same with my CPN too. Well in fact everyone in my life. But maybe you need to let her in a bit more. I think you are shielding yourself from the what if's which is perfectly normal. But you do need her and her methods to help you fight your depression. Meds are 1 of them maybe this med isn't for you.... maybe you need to tell Pippa and Psych about this.

Self harming isn't the greatest huh!! Please be care ok, I need you to promise me that. Is your new way of self harming just a recent thing?

Meds and life does this.... they trick you into thinking your "cured" and life is great. Its a mixture of you and all of the above gelling together.

Your Family are probably a bit confused as to why your behaviour has changed. Its all good though Jess. You just said yourself "bursting into dancing" how long does this go on for? Does your Grandma know you have Depression?

I am ok Jess a bit down recently. I have my Medical and a 20 min interview tomorrow eeeek!!!!