Avid Reader, so so sorry that all this is hitting you now, but I'm glad the hospitalization helped and that you are getting on a more supportive track.

I think it's pretty common for partners to flee when it gets tough. My ex did. It's fine though--I mean, it hurt at the time but after a few years he came to regret it (too bad, good riddance), and now I have a partner who is right there for me no matter what.

Your kids will be OK so long as they know you love them, and you do. Hugs to you and just keep putting one foot in front of another. It will get better and better. Maybe not quickly, but gradually you will come back to yourself and life will improve. Hang in there!