Hi thanks for responding, my dr knows and i have 2 therapists that i see weekly, both working on different things, i know the drinking is bad and for a person who has never really got into the whole alcohol thing its really funny ive resorted to it now. But the things that i manage to go and do i do to exteme i.e at judo i push myself with no regard for my safety, and when driving if alone i just put my foot down, and so on. This is just a small part of my problem and liking myself would help x