Thanks Blueoctober, and scooterbug.

It's so hard to not get discouraged. No more than three on a good day?

I keep track using mood chart. Seems I am always doing mood charts.

I have tried lithium, lamictal, depakote, seroquel, riperdal, zyprexa, thorazine, prozac, celexa, zoloft, wellbutrin, zopiclone, lorazepam, diazepam, halcion. Tried in different combinations, no real notable results.

I am taking lithmax now and it doesn't make me want to puke like lithium carbonate did. Seems like a lot of tries to me but I know there is a lot more out there.

Antidepressant make me manic, or mixed within a week, my Pdoc said we are done trying those... haha thank god