OH you guys,

I am so sorry to create drama.

Honestly, I just feel incredibly toxic and don't want to rub off on other people. I'm sorry.

I am pretty heavily medicated right now. I don't know when I will connect with T or what's going to happen. It's bad.

I'm sorry. I told Doc John to just wait while I figure out what I'm doing.

Thank you for the PMs and the hugs and the support. I won't be like this forever